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03 Jul 2014, Thu

Happy Birthday To Me! It's today! And I'm hoping deep inside that my birthday wish will come true.

Still spotting, and now it looks like fresh red. My heart dropped but refusing to let go of that hope, that miracle. The abdominal cramp has now been taken over by what feels like AF cramp. Not giving up, and still faithfully taking all my medication including TSB's herbs. I'm not gonna give up unless my blood test says so.

DH took half day leave and brought lunch back from HANS. Had lunch and bed rested in the afternoon till dinner. Dinner was Spizza in celebration of my bday. I enjoyed the meal very much today as we had it together as a family with mum.

Oh, I wrote to SF Loh late last night on my situation asking for advice. Finally got his reply late night and from my description, he felt that it's a biochemical pregnancy. His reply somehow gave me some kinda closure and I strangely felt at peace. Showed DH the reply and DH was a little upset. Told DH to also be prepared for the worse while hoping for the best.

Went to bed feeling strangely lighter and preparing for BT tomorrow. All in God's hands and timing now.

How I Feel Today:
Emotionally a little weak due to all these anxieties.